February 2011
55 posts
facebook fast
i decided facebook has too much control over my life, emotions, and plans…what was it like without myspace or facebook??? yeahh, i want that life again. i might even get limited texting…only for necessity because of softball season…sooo, bye tumblr. see you april 1st (:
In the past week
I have had “friends” telling people about who i supposedly “hooked up” with to other people…another one who just used me for one thing and doesnt talk to me anymore…another one who bailed on me for ringdance…but now is going with someone else.another one who forgot all about me and our plans as if i never existed.another one to straight lie to my...
Why
Do I feel as if I have to keep pretending I’m not hurt? Like this hole you burned into my chest isn’t there?
Who I like and why...
i dont really think i like anyone…so ill talk about the last person i was interested in…An old friend. Lives in my neighborhood. I liked his innocence…until he screwed me over and now that i REALLY know him…he has changed so much, and a lot of times i dont mind…but its not a good change….conforming to his new friends…he is just a clone…i liked his...
My 5 irritations...
girls:
1. “I am so fat.” and they weigh like 100 pounds. shutup.
2. You date a guy 2 weeks and your in love.
3. Most cant keep their mouth shut…walk out the room for a second…and their most likely talking about you.
4. actually this should go as my number one… “its not my fault. Im on my period.” like thats an excuse? oh please.
5. “like”...
Day 3:What i wear to bed.
most of the time its just a t-shirt and underwear…
its sad
i cant remember the last time someone texted me.
Day 3: What kind of person attracts me...
okay. most people would start off with looks…im going to start with inner qualities. dont get me wrong, appearance counts to a point…and i dont feel shallow at all saying that, because anyone who says that is lieing…we all have different preferances and if we didnt then we wouldnt like different people…so inner qualities…they have to be smart. Im sorry, if they arent...
Day 2: How I've changed in the past two years....
This time two years ago i was about 30 pounds heavier. short reddish hair. i was depressed. i was on crutches from my roof incident on my 15th birthday, going to physical therapy…and just HATING myself. I was out of control. Through the next two years i would try to escape what i thought was keeping me back…kellam and went to princess anne…only to come back to kellam where i...
i keep telling myself
things will work out…things will get better…things will fall into place…one day i will find someone that actually is interested in who i am…not my body or what i can give them…i keep telling myself there will be a time where someone thinks im worth it and that im good enough. there will be a time where i have amazing friends who will stick by me and just…be a...
Day One: Wierd Things I Do When I'm Alone.
I stalk people on facebook? but i dont think thats wierd…i mean everyone does it…and we all know we end up looking at some random sexyy boyy with a boyfriend who lives in Oklahoma or something. I stare in the mirror…either dancing erotically (or my attempt) or just put my face right up to the mirror and make the ugliest faces. I also start making really obnoxious and...
yeah, i get straight A's
i dont boast about it infront of people…mostly because people are petty and when they get C’s because they dont want to put effort into their schoolwork…they like to shit on other people to make themselves feel alright and accomplished. well i go to school, pay attention, and work my ass off. I’m going to be happy about it, and when you ask me what i got on my report card...
i want to be something more.
When someone asks you when you're going to get a...
2thumbsup:
…and you’re just like “I don’t know, I guess tomorrow when I walk out of my house I’ll just choose one from the swarm of guys that all come sprinting towards me.”
dear heart,
stfu.
I feel
As if nothing matters. I just wanna sleep the days away. Its kind of like a numbness taking over my body. Nothing seems important anymore. Im not so sure i see any point in anything. Its like ive given up…and its like i dont even care.
